Service, Recovery and Unity.
I have strong desire to stay sober today and want to do as much service as humanly possible!
Sobriety is my #1 priority.
It’s more important than my 13 year marriage, 8 yr son, almost 11 yr daughter, and my job/career.
Because if I dont stop the obsessive lust compulsion, I wont have anything.
The point is, I’m just very fragile. I dont need to lobby in front of a bunch of sick people “why I want to volunteer and be a trusted servant”.
Someone hurt my feelings Thursday because I asked about the pin #, criticizing my “dialogue”.
If you need help, and I currently have extra time I want to get involved. I was excited to manage the script on Wed and Friday but if someone else wants to do it I will stay out of the way. I fully recognize the value of service.
Here is my recovery history:
* 1990 found Narcotics Anonymous
* 1992 began AA & Alanon
* 1995 began SLAA & SA
* NA/AA sobriety date: 11/7/1996
* 2002 married
* 2013 began SAA
I’ve ALWAYS had job(s) in 12 step recovery since I started my journey and took it seriously (23 years straight). I could never repay what the program(s) have given me.
As far as Sex Addicts Anonymous is concerned, I’m relatively new. I want to take it slow.
My inner circle begins with Adultery (13 years) and I include strip clubs and adult video stores.
I struggle with middle circle behavior: masturbation, pornography, Sports Illustrated swimsuit, Victoria Secret, staring @ women, flirting with women, using the language of lust, watching TV/Movies and fantasy.
The greatest thing I’ll ever become is “human”. I committed fornication from age 18-34. I’m now 47 and still breathing. I’m guity of sin perhaps ever since early childhood. Alot of what I hear at meetings is about developing a “moral compass”.