Children are God’s little blessings.

I was just talking to a friend of mine in Utah.  He is a single Dad with two kids – daughter and son, just like me.

I told him, I have lots of friends in Sexaholics Anonymous that fall into one of the following categories:

1. Single, never married, no children
2. Single, divorced, no children
3. Married, no children
4. Single, adult children (over age 18)
5. Married, adult children (over age 18)

I am married going on 14 years and have a 11 year old daughter and a 9 year old son.  Both of them have NEVER seen me drink or get high.  I used to be an terrible addict and ODAAT I am getting better, thanks to SA.  Incidentally, my AA sobriety date is 11/7/96.

So, what’s the point?

The point is this.  It is very hard talking to people sometimes who don’t have young children because I don’t think they understand how DIFFICULT life can be raising them.  Even if their children are grown up, they probably are forgot or are certainly not feeling nearly the anxiety that I feel on a daily basis.

And to make matters worse, I have been really struggling in my career.  I had a great job 1-1/2 years ago as a college professor.  Unfortunately, I was fired because I could not relate better to the students.  Truthfully, I think I may have been too strict on them because I was punishing them for the mistakes I made as an undergraduate student and wanted to teach them a VALUABLE lesson.  Study hard.  Don’t take education for granted.

“How shall we come to terms with seeming failure or success? Can we now accept and adjust to either without despair or pride? Can we accept poverty, sickness, loneliness, and bereavement with courage and serenity? Can we steadfastly content ourselves with the humbler, yet sometimes more durable, satisfactions when the brighter, more glittering achievements are denied us?” (AA Daily Reflections 12/26)

Today’s meditation brings up several thoughts today:

1. Xmas Presents.
2. New Year’s resolutions. Six days left in 2015.
3. Promises & Regret
4. 3rd & 7th Step Prayers

No one can go back in time to change what has happened, so work on your present to make yourself a wonderful future.   Read more

Devil’s Advocate—a person who expresses a contentious opinion in order to provoke debate or test the strength of the opposing arguments.
“the interviewer will need to play devil’s advocate to put the other side’s case forward”

“Vanity – is defenitely my favourite sin”

Vanity—excessive pride in one’s appearance, qualities, abilities, achievements, etc.; character or quality of being vain; conceit: Failure to be elected was a great blow to his vanity.

What is “normal / healthy” intimacy?

Thank God for the feedback regarding groping – to search for something by reaching or touching usually with your fingers in an awkward way; to touch (someone) in an unwanted and unexpected sexual way.

“I could see a girl in a bikini on a billboard five years ago and it wouldn’t bother me; now, I go to pieces and lose my mind over it.”
“Lust throws my whole system out of whack. I lose my equilibrium, my control, and have to recover as if from a poison.”  SA WB pg. 32

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grope—feel about or search blindly or uncertainly with the hands.
“she got up and groped for her spectacles”

fumble, scrabble, fish, ferret, rummage, feel, search, hunt
“she groped for her glasses”

search mentally with hesitation or uncertainty for (a word or answer).
“she was groping for the words which would express what she thought”

move along with difficulty by feeling objects as one goes.
“she blew out the candle and groped her way to the door”

informal—feel or fondle (someone) for sexual pleasure, especially against their will. “he was accused of groping office girls”.  synonyms: fondle, touch.

feminist; plural noun: feminists

a person who supports feminism.

of, relating to, or supporting feminism.
“feminist literature”