Overwhelmed

Respect for females is one of my biggest problems in life.  There are multiple names I try to use like women or ladies.  But I have to be careful with girls and especially chicks.

Today I really value women and have a much different perspective, but it continues to change.

 

 

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The fellowship gave us monitoring and support to keep us from being overwhelmed, a safe haven where we could finally face ourselves.” (SOLUTION, WB pg. 61-62 and pg. 204-5)

“addicts, then love cripples” (WHAT IS A SEXAHOLIC AND WHAT IS SEXUAL SOBRIETY, WB pg. ii and pg. 203)

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Family Radio => http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harold_Camping

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Famous Alcoholics (addicts)

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Howard_Hughes

Lust for Power

Lust is an emotion or feeling of intense desire in the body. The lust can take any form such as the lust for knowledge, the lust for sex or the lust for power. It can take such mundane forms as the lust for food as distinct from the need for food. Lust is a psychological force producing intense wanting for an object, or circumstance fulfilling the emotion. Read more

Other References: Lust Manipulation | Sexual Inducement

When I was an active Alcoholic and “womanizer” I constantly manipulated women to have sex with me.  At the very least, I would not give up until they gave me their phone number.  Everywhere I went, I constantly flirted with females and saw it as a game or conquest.

Today I’m married and have a young daughter.  I need to ALWAYS remember that when I’m objectifying other a lady that she is another father’s girl.  I’m very, very proud to have “Daddy’s little Girl” and I don’t want to abuse women anymore!  Even if I’m fantasizing ONLY and not even talking to them, I’m still stealing and taking.  I pray that when I see an attractive female today that I can stop and pray for her rather then satisfy my own desires. Amen

Three Legacies

Service, Recovery and Unity.

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I have strong desire to stay sober today and want to do as much service as humanly possible!

Sobriety is my #1 priority.

It’s more important than my 13 year marriage, 8 yr son,  almost 11 yr daughter, and my job/career.

Because if I dont stop the obsessive lust compulsion, I wont have anything.

The point is, I’m just very fragile. I dont need to lobby in front of a bunch of sick people “why I want to volunteer and be a trusted servant”.

Someone hurt my feelings Thursday because I asked about the pin #, criticizing my “dialogue”.

If you need help, and I currently have extra time I want to get involved. I was excited to manage the script on Wed and Friday but if someone else wants to do it I will stay out of the way. I fully recognize the value of service.

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Here is my recovery history:

* 1990 found Narcotics Anonymous

* 1992 began AA & Alanon

* 1995 began SLAA & SA

* NA/AA sobriety date: 11/7/1996

* 2002 married

* 2013 began SAA

I’ve ALWAYS had job(s) in 12 step recovery since I started my journey and took it seriously (23 years straight). I could never repay what the program(s) have given me.

As far as Sex Addicts Anonymous is concerned, I’m relatively new. I want to take it slow.

My inner circle begins with Adultery (13 years) and I include strip clubs and adult video stores.

I struggle with middle circle behavior: masturbation, pornography, Sports Illustrated swimsuit, Victoria Secret, staring @ women, flirting with women, using the language of lust, watching TV/Movies and fantasy.

The greatest thing I’ll ever become is “human”. I committed fornication from age 18-34. I’m now 47 and still breathing. I’m guity of sin perhaps ever since early childhood. Alot of what I hear at meetings is about developing a “moral compass”.

Amen